(a little context for my new readers this year: for the last couple of years i've been aggregating unused thoughts that didn't make it into my race reports into a year-end catharsis. most of these are ideas or discussions with myself i had in a potentially-hallucinogenic stupor after hour 20 of staying awake during an event of some sort, but lately some of these are thoughts i had in a sleep-deprived stupor 30h into a volunteer shift.
the title is also a reference to this.)